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be the sea。 grey is the landscape； dim as ashes； the water murmurs and moves。 if i fall on my knees； if i go through the ritual； the ancient antics； it’s you； unknown figures； you i adore； if i open my arms； it’s you i embrace； you i draw to me—adorable world！
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5。 The String Quartet
小！说
5。 the string quartet
well； here we are； and if you cast your eye over the room you will see that tubes and trams and omnibuses； private carriages not a few； even； i venture to believe； landaus with bays in them； have been busy at it； weaving threads from one end of london to the other。 yet i begin to have my doubts—
if indeed it’s true； as they’re saying； that regent street is up； and the treaty signed； and the weather not cold for the time of year； and even at that rent not a flat to be had； and the worst of influenza its after effects； if i bethink me of having forgotten to write about the leak in the larder； and left my glove in the train； if the ties of blood require me； leaning forward； to accept cordially the hand which is perhaps offered hesitatingly—
“seven years since we met！”
“the last time in venice。”
“and where are you living now？”
“well； the late afternoon suits me the best； though； if it weren’t asking too much—”
“but i knew you at once！”
“still； the war made a break—”
if the mind’s shot through by such little arrows； and—for human society pels it—no sooner is one launched than another presses forward； if this engenders heat and in addition they’ve turned on the electric light； if saying one thing does； in so many cases； leave behind it a need to improve and revise； stirring besides regrets； pleasures； vanities； and desires—if it’s all the facts i mean； and the hats； the fur boas； the gentlemen’s swallow–tail coats； and pearl tie–pins that e to the surface—what chance is there？
of what？ it bees every minute more difficult to say why； in spite of everything； i sit here believing i can’t now say what； or even remember the last time it happened。
“did you see the procession？”
“the king looked cold。”
“no； no； no。 but what was it？”
“she’s bought a house at malmesbury。”
“how lucky to find one！”
on the contrary； it seems to me pretty sure that she； whoever she may be； is damned； since it’s all a matter of flats and hats and sea gulls； or so it seems to be for a hundred people sitting here well dressed； walled in； furred； replete。 not that i can boast； since i too sit passive on a gilt chair； only turning the earth above a buried memory； as we all do； for there are signs； if i’m not mistaken； that we’re all recalling something； furtively seeking something。 why fidget？ why so anxious about the sit of cloaks； and gloves—whether to button or unbutton？ then watch that elderly face against the dark canvas； a moment ago urbane and flushed； now taciturn and sad； as if in shadow。 was it the sound of the second violin tuning in the ante–room？ here they e； four black figures； carrying instruments； and seat themselves facing the white squares under the downpour of light； rest the tips of their bows on the music stand； with a simultaneous movement lift them； lightly poise them； and； looking across at the player opposite； the first violin counts one； two； three—
flourish； spring； burgeon； burst！ the pear tree on the top of the mountain。 fountains jet； drops descend。 but the waters of the rhone flow swift and deep； race under the arches； and sweep the trailing water leaves； washing shadows over the silver fish； the spotted fish rushed down by the swift waters； now swept into an eddy where—it’s difficult this—conglomeration of fish all in a pool； leaping； splashing； scraping sharp fins； and such a boil of current that the yellow pebbles are churned round and round； round and round—free now； rushing downwards； or even somehow ascending in exquisite spirals into the air； curled like thin shavings from under a plane； up and up。 。 。 how lovely goodness is in those who； stepping lightly； go smiling through the world！ also in jolly old fishwives； squatted under arches； oh scene old women； how deeply they laugh and shake and rollick； when they walk； from side to side； hum； hah！
“that’s an early mozart； of course—”
“but the tune； like all his tunes； makes one despair—i mean hope。 what do i mean？ that’s the worst of music！ i want to dance； laugh； eat pink cakes； yellow cakes； drink thin； sharp wine。 or an indecent story； now—i could relish that。 the older one grows the more one likes indecency。 hall； hah！ i’m laughing。 what at？ you said nothing； nor did the old gentleman opposite。 。 。 but suppose—suppose—hush！”
the melancholy river bears us on。 when the moon es through the trailing willow boughs； i see your face； i hear your voice and the bird singing as we pass the osier bed。 what are you whispering？ sorrow； sorrow。 joy； joy。 woven together； like reeds in moonlight。 woven together； inextricably mingled； bound in pain and strewn in sorrow—crash！
the boat sinks。 rising； the figures ascend； but now leaf thin； tapering to a dusky wraith； which； fiery tipped； draws its twofold passion from my heart。 for me it sings； unseals my sorrow； thaws passion； floods with love the sunless world； nor； ceasing； abates its tenderness but deftly； subtly； weaves in and out until in this pattern； this consummation； the cleft ones unify； soar； sob； sink to rest； sorrow and joy。
why then grieve？ ask what？ remain unsatisfied？ i say all’s been settled； yes； laid to rest under a coverlet of rose leaves； falling。 falling。 ah； but they cease。 one rose leaf； falling from an enormous height； like a little parachute dropped from an invisible balloon； turns； flutters waveringly。 it won’t reach us。
“no； no。 i noticed nothing。 that’s the worst of music—these silly dreams。 the second violin was late； you say？”
“there’s old mrs。 munro； feeling her way out—blinder each year； poor woman—on this slippery floor。”
eyeless old age； grey–headed sphinx。 。 。 there she stands on the pavement； beckoning； so sternly； the red omnibus。
“how lovely！ how well they play！ how—how—how！”
the tongue is but a clapper。 simplicity itself。 th