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roofer were larger than the ones he had been called in to mend。 it was all right to lie on the floor of the attic and feel the sunshine on your face； but rain was another matter。 the floorboards began to soften； then water dripped through into the rooms below。 there were places you knew not to tread； where the floor sagged precariously beneath your feet。 soon it would collapse and you would be able to see straight through into the room below。 and how long before that room’s floor gave way and you would see into the library？ and could the library floor give way？ would it one day be possible to stand in the cellars and look up through four floors of rooms to the sky？ water； like god； moves in mysterious ways。 once inside a house； it obeys the force of gravity indirectly。 inside walls and under floors it finds secret gullies and runways； it seeps and trickles in unexpected directions； surfaces in the most unlikely places。 all around the house were cloths to soak up the wet； but no one ever wrung them out； saucepans and bowls were placed here and there to catch drips； but they overflowed before anyone remembered to change them。 the constant wet…less brought the plaster off the walls and was eating into the mortar。 in the attic； there were walls so unsteady that with one hand you could rock them like a loose tooth。 and the twins in all of this？
it was a serious wound that hester and the doctor had inflicted。 of course things would never be the same again。 the twins would always hare a scar； and the effects of the separation would never be entirely eradicated。 yet they felt the scar differently。 adeline after all had fallen quickly into a state of fugue once she understood what hester and the doctor were about。 she lost herself almost at the moment she lost her twin and had no recollection of the time passed away from her。 as far as she knew； the blackness that had been interposed between losing her twin and finding her again might have been a year or a second。 not that it mattered now。 for it was over； and she had e to life again。
for emmeline； things were different。 she had not had the relief of amnesia。 she had suffered longer； and she had suffered more。 each second was agony in the first weeks。 she was like an amputee in the days before anesthesia； half crazed with pain； astounded that the human body could feel so much and not die of it。 but slowly； cell by painful cell； she began to mend。 there came a time when it was no longer her whole body that burned with pain but only her heart。 and then there came a time when even her heart was able； for a time at least； to feel other emotions besides grief。 in short； emmeline adapted to her twin’s absence。 she learned how to exist apart。
yet still they reconnected and were twins again。 though emmeline was not the same twin as before； and this was something adeline did not immediately know。
at the beginning there was only the delight of reunion。 they were inseparable。 where one went； the other followed。 in the topiary gardens they circled around the old trees； playing endless games of now…you…see…me…now…you…don’t； a repetition of their recent experience of loss and rediscovery that adeline never seemed to tire of。 for emmeline； the novelty began gradually to wear off。 some of the old antagonism crept in。 emmeline wanted to go one way； adeline the other； so they fought。 and as before； it was usually emmeline who gave in。 in her new； secret self； she minded this。
though emmeline had once been fond of hester； she didn’t miss her now。 during the experiment her affection had waned。 she knew； after all； that it was hester who had separated her from her sister。 and not only that； but hester had been so taken up with her reports and her scientific consultations that； perhaps without realizing it； she had neglected emmeline。 during that time； finding herself in unaccustomed solitude； emmeline had found ways of distracting herself from her sorrow。 she discovered amusements and entertainments that she grew to enjoy for their own sake。 games that she did not expect to give up just because her sister was back。
so it was that on the third day after the reunion； emmeline abandoned the lost…and…found game in the topiary garden and wandered off to the billiards room； where she kept a pack of cards。 lying on her stomach in the middle of the baize table； she began her game。 it was a version of solitaire； but the simplest； most childish kind。 emmeline won every time； the game was designed so that she couldn’t fail。 and every time she was delighted。
halfway through a game； she tilted her head。 she couldn’t exactly hear it； but her inner ear； which was tuned constantly to her twin； told her adeline was calling her。 emmeline ignored it。 she was busy。 she could see adeline later。 when she had finished her game。
an hour later； when adeline came storming into the room； eyes screwed tight with rage； there was nothing emmeline could do to defend herself。 adeline clambered onto the table and； hysterical with fury； launched herself at emmeline。
emmeline did not raise a finger to defend herself。 nor did she cry。 she made not a sound； neither during the attack nor when it was all over。
when adeline’s rage was spent； she stood for a few minutes watch…g her sister。 blood was seeping into the green baize。 playing cards ere scattered everywhere。 emmeline was curled into a ball； and her shoulders were jerkily rising and falling with her breath。 adeline turned her back and walked away。
emmeline remained where she was； on the table； until john came to find her hours later。 he took her to the missus； who washed the blood out of her hair； put a press on her eye and treated her bruises with witch hazel。 “this wouldn’t have happened when hester was here；” she mented。 “i do wish i knew when she was ing back。”
‘she won’t be ing back；“ john said； trying to contain his annoyance。 he didn’t like to see the child like this either。
‘but i don’t see why she would have gone like that。 without a word。 whatever can have happened？ some emergency； i suppose。 with her family…“
john shook his head。 he’d heard this a dozen times； this idea the missus clung to； that hester would be ing