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young sapper again。
he stays awake in any case this night； to see if the figure moves towards him。 ignoring the tablet that brings painless…ness； he will remain awake till the light dies out and the smell of candle smoke drifts into his room and into the girl’s room farther down the hall。 if the figure turns around there will be paint on his back； where he slammed in grief against the mural of trees。
when the candle dies out he will be able to see this。 his hand reaches out slowly and touches his book and returns to his dark chest。 nothing else moves in the room。
now where does he sit as he thinks of her？ these years later。 a stone of history skipping over the water； bouncing up so she and he have aged before it touches the surface again and sinks。
where does he sit in his garden thinking once again he should go inside and write a letter or go one day down to the telephone depot； fill out a form and try to contact her in another country。 it is this garden； this square patch of dry cut grass that triggers him back to the months he spent with hana and caravaggio and the english patient north of florence in the villa san girolamo。 he is a doctor； has two children and a laughing wife。 he is permanently busy in this city。 at six p。m。 he removes his white lab coat。 underneath he wears dark trousers and a short…sleeved shirt。 he closes up the clinic； where all the paperwork has weights of various kinds—stones； inkpots； a toy truck his son no longer plays with—to keep it from being blown away by the fan。 he climbs onto his bicycle and pedals the four miles home； through the bazaar。 whenever he can he swerves his bicycle over to the shadowed part of the street。 he has reached an age when he suddenly realizes that the sun of india exhausts him。
he glides under the willows by the canal and then stops at a small neighbourhood of houses； removes his cycle clips and carries the bicycle down the steps into the small garden his wife has nurtured。
and something this evening has brought the stone out of the water and allowed it to move back within the air towards the hill town in italy。 it was perhaps the chemical burn on the arm of the girl he treated today。 or the stone stairway； where brown weeds grow ardently along the steps。 he had been carrying his bicycle and was halfway up the steps before he remembered。
this had been on the way to work； so the trigger of memory was postponed when he got to the hospital and ran into seven hours of constant patients and administration。 or it might have been the burn on the young girl’s arm。 he sits in the garden。
and he watches hana； her hair longer； in her own country。 and what does she do？ he sees her always； her face and body； but he doesn’t know what her profession is or what her circumstances are； although he sees her reactions to people around her； her bending down to children； a white fridge door behind her； a background of noiseless tram cars。 this is a limited gift he has somehow been given； as if a camera’s film reveals her； but only her； in silence。 he cannot discern the pany she moves among； her judgement； all he can witness is her character and the lengthening of her dark hair； which falls again and then again into her eyes。
she will； he realizes now； always have a serious face。 she has moved from being a young woman into having the angular look of a queen； someone who has made her face with her desire to be a certain kind of person。 he still likes that about her。
her smartness； the fact that she did not inherit that look or that beauty； but that it was something searched for and that it will always reflect a present stage of her character。 it seems every month or two he witnesses her this way； as if these moments of revelation are a continuation of the letters she wrote to him for a year； getting no reply； until she stopped sending them； turnedaway by his silence。 his character； he supposed。
now there are these urges to talk with her during a meal and return to that stage they were most intimate at in the tent or in the english patient’s room； both of which contained the turbulent river of space between them。 recalling the time； he is just as fascinated at himself there as he is with her—boyish and earnest； his lithe arm moving across the air towards the girl he has fallen in love with。 his wet boots are by the italian door； the laces tied together； his arm reaches for her shoulder； there is the prone figure on the bed。
during the evening meal he watches his daughter struggling with her cutlery； trying to hold the large weapons in her small hands。 at this table all of their hands are brown。 they move with ease in their customs and habits。 and his wife has taught them all a wild humour； which has been inherited by his son。 he loves to see his son’s wit in this house； how it surprises him constantly； going beyond even his and his wife’s knowledge and humour—the way he treats dogs on the streets； imitating their stroll； their look。 he loves the fact that this boy can almost guess the wishes of dogs from the variety of expressions at a dog’s disposal。
and hana moves possibly in the pany that is not her choice。 she； at even this age； thirty…four； has not found her own pany； the ones she wanted。 she is a woman of honour and smartness whose wild love leaves out luck； always taking risks； and there is something in her brow now that only she can recognize in a mirror。 ideal and idealistic in that shiny dark hair！ people fall in love with her。 she still remembers the lines of poems the englishman read out loud to her from his monplace book。 she is a woman i don’t know well enough to hold in my wing； if writers have wings； to harbour for the rest of my life。
and so hana moves and her face turns and in a regret she lowers her hair。 her shoulder touches the edge of a cupboard and a glass dislodges。 kirpal’s left hand swoops down and catches the dropped fork an inch from the floor and gently passes it into the fingers of his daughter； a wrinkle at the edge of his eyes behind his spectacles。
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Acknowledgements
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while some of the characters who appear in this book are based on historical figures； and while many of the